For The First Time - The Script

"She's all laid up in bed with a broken heart,
While I'm drinking Jack all alone in my local bar,
And we don't know how,
How we got in to this mad situation,
Only doing things out frustration,
Trying to make it work but man these times are hard,

She needs me now but I can't seem to find a time,
I've got a new job now on the unemployment line,
And we don't know how,
How we got into this mess is it a god's test,
Someone help us cause we're doing our best,
Trying to make it work but man these times are hard

But we're gonna start by
Drinking old cheap bottles of wine,
Sit talking up all night,
Saying things we haven't for a while, a while, yeah
We're smiling but we're close tears,
Even after all these years,
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time

She's in line at the Dole
With her head held high
Well I just lost my job but
Didn't lose my pride

But we both know how,
How we're gonna make it work when it hurts,
When you pick yourself up,
You get kicked to the dirt,
Trying to make it work but,
Man these times are hard,

But we're gonna start by,
Drinking old cheap bottles of wine,
Sit talking up all night,
Doing things we haven't for a while, a while yeah,
We're smiling but we're close to tears,
Even after all these years,
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time.

Drinking old cheap bottles of wine,
Sit talking up all night,
Saying thing we haven't for a while,
We're smiling but we're close to tears,
Even after all these years,
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting, for the first time

For the first time,
For the first time,
For the first time,
Just now got the feeling that we're meeting...
For the first time

Oh these times are hard,
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby.."

I was kinda hoping you wouldn't make it worse. 

I know you didn't intend to,

but it still hurts.

as if it was easy

I'm bursting in to tears while writing this. do you ever feel what I feel? have you ever been in my position? this is not the life I wanted before. this is not worth anything I gave up before. I feel like failing twice. and it's driving me insane, stressing me out.


this is not what I thought my life would be before. you'll never understand. one mistake and I am trapped with the life I hate, and I even can't get over. it is not you who failed. it is not you who's forced to take wrong choice. how could I be so excited as you are? I'm sorry I can't. there's never enough excitement when your all time dreams crashed. there's no more excitement when you're forced to enjoy the life you hate.


so please stop talking like it was all so easy. please stop acting like you understand. you won't. cause it's not you who tried and failed and trapped. it's not you who had to face the nightmare.


as if it was easy. as if it was my choice.

Mrs. Cold

Hey baby, Mrs. Cold

Acting so tough,

didn't know you had it in you to be hurt at all

You waited too long

You should have hooked me,

before I put my raincoat on

Ok I get it

Ok I see

You were fronting because

You knew you'd find yourself vulnerable around me

Ok I get it

Ok I see

You feel vulnerable around me

Hey, baby

what's going on?

You lost control and you lost your tongue

You lost me

Deafened my ear

Nothing you can say is gonna change the way I feel

Ok I get it

Ok I see

You were fronting because

You knew you'd find yourself vulnerable around me

Ok I get it

Ok I see

I stepped too close to your boundaries

You wanted nobody around to see

You feel vulnerable around me

Hey baby

What is love?

And what's just a game

We're both playing and we can't get enough of

We're both playing and we can't get enough of

We're both playing and we can't get enough of

Mrs. Cold - Kings of Convenience

Something Stupid

I know I stand in line
until you think you have the time
to spend an evening with me

And if we go some place to dance
I know that there's a chance
you won't be leaving with me

And afterwards we drop into a quiet little place
and have a drink or two
And then I go and spoil it all
by saying something stupid
like: "I love you"

I can see it in your eyes
you still despise the same old lines
you heard the night before

And though it's just a line to you
for me it's true
and never seemed so right before

I practice everyday
to find some clever lines to say
to make the meaning come true

But then I think I'll wait
until the evening gets late
and I'm alone with you

The time is right
your perfume fills my head
the stars get red
and oh, the night's so blue

And then I go and spoil it all
by saying something stupid
like: "I love you"

The time is right
your perfume fills my head
the stars get red
and oh, the night's so blue

And then I go and spoil it all
by saying something stupid
like: "I love you"

"I love you"

.................................. I love you.


- Something Stupid (Robin Williams ft. Nicole Kidman)

Belated birthday-post :)

Happy birthday Erlita Putranti! \m/


Ecieee yang sekarang udah 18+, udah bisa beli yang aneh aneh di Circle K *lho*

Semoga tambah tinggi, tambah langsing.. apa tambah semok aja ya? Pilih deh antara dua itu, aku mendukungmu apapun pilihanmu *tsah* :B

Baik baik ya di Jakarta, jangan sering galau lagi. Dikurangi juga ideologi hedonismemu yang kayaknya semakin lama semakin mengakar kuat di dompetmu (suka heran) -,- dibanyakin makan di emperan, emperan itu tidak selalu tidak enak kok :') #mentalmahasiswa

Good luck with your love life. Inget, cari cowok jangan yang scumbag kayak dulu (mau nyebut merk kok ga tega) :B jangan yang berpotensi friendzoning kamu jugaaa :3 #ups

Cepet punya pacar! Titel #foreveralone itu cuma punyaku seorang, jangan ngalah2in rekor 18 tahun lebih sebulan jomblo loh :B



Birthday wish macam apa ini ._.


Anyway, as your close friend (I'm not that confident to say "best"), I wish you all the best things in your life. Klise? Yoben. Kenyataan kok :D


Kalo galau lagi, kamu bisa kok telpon aku malem2, aku pasti mau dengerin. Tapi sms dulu ye sorenya *pokerface*

Kalo kamu kena friendzone, aku mau kok nyemangatin kamu.

Kalo kamu emm.. dumped by scumbag, aku mau kok njotos dat scumbag in his face -,- #owyeaaaah #preman



Jangan lupa belajar ya. Sering sering balik Jogja juga neng, di sini ada yg kangen lho. Tapi gatau siapa *siul*

Happy Birthday again, Erl! <3

Proposal, eh?

I would like to travel the world with you in ten years starting from now, would you? <3

Kepada kamu.

Mungkin selama ini aku selalu nuntut buat dingertiin, padahal mungkin selama ini aku nggak pernah ngertiin kamu.

Mungkin selama ini aku selalu nuntut kamu buat lebih peka, padahal mungkin selama ini aku yang nggak peka.

Mungkin selama ini aku manja dan bersikap kayak anak kecil, dan selalu seperti itu padahal kamu sudah baik sekali mau bersabar buat ngeladeni aku.

Mungkin selama ini aku ngerepotin, minta jemput dan temenin dan sebagainya, padahal belum pernah sekalipun kamu ngerepotin aku.

Mungkin selama ini aku egois dan nggak mikirin perasaanmu, ngambek seenak jidat sementara kamu pontang panting menuhin apa yg aku mau, padahal kamu udah berusaha buat jadi yg terbaik.



Dan faktanya?

........ Kamu adalah yang terbaik.

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Thank you for being so patient to me, for loving me even though I keep hurting you. Maybe someday you can't take it all anymore and leave. And I tell you this: there will be a big hole in my heart and my world when the time comes. Time flies, and you mean much more than before. I need you more than I thought I did back then. And I'm not that brave to take the risk of losing you.

So please, stay close and don't ever, ever, ever go. I promise you I will make more effort to work this out. And it will work out.

I'm sorry for being the jackass I've been lately. I love you. Yes, I do say those three words, eight letters I never said before, to you. I love you, more than you will ever know. For all you are, all you have been, and all you're yet to be.

Maybe we can be together for ten years and more, you know what I mean? Who knows? :}

<3